the new blog

ok, sorry!! the new web address for my blog is sunshinemaniac.blogspot.com
happy blogging!

GOODBYE!!!

OK, just so you know...
since keeping up with 2 blogs is overwhelming and truly unnecessary, i have created a COMPROMISE BLOG!!! hopefully, it suits your interests. i probably will not ever post on this blog again but may your dreams be unrestricted and your sense be common!!

http://savannahssunshine.blogspot.com/

the optimistic clothes hanger

Your movie star name: Gold Fish Sam

Your fashion designer name is Savannah Rome

Your socialite name is Mercedes Knoxville

Your fly girl / guy name is S Luc

Your detective name is Dog Farragut

Your barfly name is Subway Coke

Your soap opera name is Jane Woodsmoke

Your rock star name is Twix Snail

Your Star Wars name is Savsha Lucabs

Your punk rock band name is The Optimistic Clothes Hanger

i got it now!!

ok, so i went to washington, DC for five days. it was AMAZING!!!!! i really did not want to leave!! we went to the manassas battlefield, mount vernon (the home of george washington), the national museum of american history, the national museum of natural history, the national air & space museum, the washington monument, the capitol building, the outside of the white house and the blair house, the jefferson & rooselvelt memorials, and a lot of other places. have i mentioned it was amazing?? anyway, i roomed with kelsey, daisy and this girl named lydia. it was pretty interesting... let's just say you learn A LOT more about people that you didn't know before when you're forced to be with them pretty much 24 hours a day for 5 days... ugh. it was painful and annoying. but at least i had susie!! she always kept thing interesting. haha.
(and of course i missed you jordan, allie, and gloria!!!!)
anywho... on the stuff you probably rather hear about. i'll just give you the story:

ok... so i have been friends with bob for like 2 years. he's a nice guy and i always have thought of him as my friend. during the dc trip, he tagged along with my me and my friends almost everywhere i go and talks to me all the time, etc. you get the picture. then when i was at the pentagon city mall (which is amazing! it had like 4 floors and it was chock full of crazy awesomeness).. anyway at the mall i saw it. and i was like 'omg sally! i think bob likes me...' my other friend had commented on this a few times and i was like 'oh.. no way! we're just friends!'
anyway, so i told sally everything he's done (which can be found at the end of this) and shes like 'awww...he does like you!' and then she yells over to someone who told 2 other someones until i told them all to shut up and keep it quiet. so then the next day, i was vaguely trying to avoid him because frankly, i was a little freaked out. THEN that night, his friend joe comes up to me and said 'hey would you please talk to bob? he's really upset because he thinks you're avoiding him or something.' and then i denied it b/c i really didn't want my suspicions to be confirmed. then joe said 'yeah he was crying a little b/c you weren't talkng to him. he's really upset..'
and then he started to say something else but then he was like 'nevermind. he wouldn't want me to tell you..' (and of course, i had to push for it so i was like 'no! tell me!!' and joe was like 'well.. he really likes you and he was going to ask you out...' and i didn't even hear anything else. i was like WHAT?!?!?!? it hit me in the face. it was like i had been running and a cold marble wall dropped in front of me and i ran into it. i didn't even see it coming!
so then on the bus home that night, i started thinking.. and i picked up on these little things that have happened...
*he bought me a necklace...
*he bought me something on the dc trip when i complained of running out of money (and when he offered, bill and ron walked up and bill was like 'what are you two goin out or something?' and was like ummmm... noo. and bob didnt say anything. abd then ron saud 'yeah! i can really see it!they would make a good couple!' ugfhh..)
anyway..
*he also offered to buy me a like $15 tshirt
*he invited me to his house for his superbowl party
*he offered to teach me how to dance (and i must say.. he doed look good in a tux..)
*constantly texts me
*when i joked about seeing a chick flick with him, he said 'no, i wouldn't mind. if it was with you, i would go along willingly."
and idk what else, but trust me, there's more. but the thing is, i don't really like him like that. he really is only just a friend to me! anyway, so i'll see how that goes. the funny thing is that he has no idea that i know all of this or even talked with his friend, haha.
i would appreciate if you do not talk about this with other people. i haven't told the one person you probably think who would have been the first to hear. but that's another issue!! ttfn

i know life isn't perfect, but should it really be this hard?

my life is full of many, many great things. but seemingly 'normal' peope don't have to go through most of the stuff i do. i'm not complaining. well, kind of...

anyway, relating to what was stated above, some 'stuff' happened again this morning. we didn't go to middlesboro this weekend. i was really, really bummed about this b/c i would have gotten to see you know who and do who knows what. (no, nothing bad lol)
i didnt get to see my grandma either. or go hiking. or 4 wheeling. or swimming. or just messing around. or whatever.

i didnt get to do ANY of what i had mostly mentally (but some things verbally) planned.

why?

because of something that i didnt do but am hopelessly involved in until a miracle happens. i continue to pray, so my wish will be granted soon enough.

so today i ended up immersed in the 'orange and white game' traffic. oh no. i didn't go to the game. i ended up fishing off the dock of a marina (where a friend's boat is parked) i caught a largemouth bass! it was pretty cool and i applaude the being who decided to engage us in this activity as a distraction. it worked! kind of...

then i came home to another surprise- which stirred up mixed feelings.

so i have been home for maybe an hour and a half and i've been out shooting. oh! (and i just thought of this yesterday)

whenever something goes wrong and i HAVE to escape, i either take off on my bike or i go out and shoot. in short, let's just say i have gained amazingly better shooting skills and i have gotten stronger, faster, and have more endurance. this says a lot.

anyway, sort of movin on-

around a month ago, i found a favorite song. they usually drift in and out, but before this, there just weren't any great ones. until miley cyrus came along and handed me something that i could finally relate to. i know, i know. but i'm not just another miley zombie fan. i really admire her. i mean seriously. look at all she's accomplished! and shes only 16!! shes amazing. so heres the song. life's a climb-

"the climb" by miley cyrus

I can almost see it that
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head saying
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
I Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always goona want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes i'm going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing,
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on,
Cause...

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes i'm going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

(guitar solo) Yeah...

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you're going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

yeah...

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It’s all about
It’s all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith
Whoa...

i know that everyone has their problems. and i don't think that one person's problems are any greater than another person's. it may seem that way to an outsider, but a person's issue is their issue. i dont know if that makes sense. "kinda-sorta-almost-maybe?" guess where that came from?!?! lol

RAWR means i love you in dinosaur

my action packed life!!

i looked at my huge dry erase whiteboard calender on my wall and realized that my weeks are completely packed until the end of school! whoa! i know right? i usually don't do much, but then i look up and WHAMMO! i am suddenly booked!
so here's the dealio-
this weekend, of course we had off school for four days. yesterday, i went shopping pretty much all day and then i went 2 olivias bday party. then today, we went 2 church (happy easter by the way) and then we came home. my dad, landon, and i went frisbee golfing. it was such a gorgeous day! and then we came home, i chilled for an hour or so, and then ross and tyler came over and played 2 on 2 with my brother and me. and then- prepare yourself........... I UPDATED MY BLOG!!!
anyway, 2morrow, they're probably going 2 come over again.

this week, we have tcaps. i, personally, do not AT ALL mind them!! i mean come on! it's easy stuff and we don't have to have all of our classes, we get longer 'recess' time, and only 1 special area! it's pure awesomeness!

then after tcaps are over on friday, i go home and pack. yes! i am going to middlesboro (yay) to visit my grandma AND the bowlings. i am so ready!

THEN we get back on sunday and i have to start focusing on DC. by then, i won't have ANY packing done, anything organized, etc.

THEN we LEAVE FOR DC!!!!!! (wednesday) and i don't get back until sunday (so i get back at 9 or 10 and then have 2 go to school the next day. not b/c i have to. my mom will be trying to get me 2 stay home, but of course i have to go back because i'll miss everyone too much!!

then after i get back on my feet that week, i'm probably going to miss school friday because we're heading up to louisville, ky to my grandparents' house because IT'S DERBY TIME!!! yes, the kentucky derby is back again!! woo! in case you didn't know, i spent the 1st 8 years of my life in my ole' kentucky home. (thats the state song btw) so of course we absolutely MUST! go back for the derby! we usually have a derby party and one of my uncles will be there, along with meme (my grandma), papa (grandpa), and nanny (great grandmother).

so i am totally PUMPED for the next few weeks!! bet you wish yours were this busayy too!!! it will be interesting to see if i can pull it all off!

so, in the words of the great Tigger, ttfn!! (ta ta for now)

the irony of dr. phil...

recently, i saw the front page of a magazine that said "dr. phil betrayed by wife"

you would think that the one guy who everyone looks to for relationship help and life guidance would have at least his own life straight. he's dr. phil! people refer to his name when describing their good friends' ways of comforting and advice giving! (if that makes any sense...) heck, he should be the one who's the most well off! well, he's not apparently.
and if you've noticed, i usually tell a little anecdote to open a post, then link it with something in my life. so here's the link:
sometimes the people who you think have no problems are the ones with the most. don't judge people based on their reflectance (is that a word?) in every day life. for example, there might be a guy who's the best basketball coach ever! but he absolutely sucks at basketball!
oh wait, let me put it in terms you can understand. umm.. the best conductor might not even know how to play an instrument. (though highly unlikley)
anyway, dont judge people. period!!

well, tomorrow i'm going to see the hannah montana movie with some friends. it will be interesting... don't ask.

this is for the violinists who think that they're actually pretty good...

to all the so called 'talented' violinists... WATCH THIS VIDEO AND THEN COMMENT!!!

http://video.yahoo.com/network/100063489?v=4257022&l=100063517


I'D LIKE TO SEE YOU DO THIS!!! $100 says you can't. WITH the dance moves. there are so many lame concert violin players out there.* no variety! just the same old lullabies and sure, sometimes there are great intricate performances, but really. they all sound the same! sure, keep your shrill on with mozart and beethoven and whatever. but once you can do this, i will really respect, admire, envy, blah blah blah, your skills. peace out.

*i promise, i am not trying to imply anything. there are great musicians out there!! i'm sure you're an amazing violinist...

Chopstick_Girl said...
we are definitely polar opposites >_<

i watched the video and the dancing and hip shaking is utterly ridiculous in my opinion.

since i am a violinist myself, we are accustomed to standing still and we still produce marvolous music (beyond hers) without the dancing and hip shaking.

April 6, 2009 2:24 PM
Savvy said...
i think that standing still is BORING!! at least she threw in some flavor and variety. sure, you can stand still and make great music. but, the level of your performance all depends on the audience. if i had to sit through your standard vioilin solo (standing still, shrillin it up) i would fall asleep. she keeps it upbeat and interesting.

domination nation!!! tomorrow night.

thats right. tomorrow night. DOMINATION NATION!!! i created this for my facebook status:
DOMINATION NATION!!! TO ANYONE WHO KNOWS WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT: team domination (aka: the pink team, team tharp, etc) is going to DOMINATE during our game tomorrow night at 8:10.( even though we have been undefeated at losing all season) show your support by wearing PINK of some sort to the edge tomorrow night and TELL YOUR FRIENDS!!!

so i hope we'll get a pink wipe out!! lol we are so gonna lose..

reasons to smile

i saw this post on one of the blogs i follow. although i did not actually read the post, the title made me think for a second. reasons to smile. there are so many things that make me smile. random and not so random. speaking of random...
i love seeing random acts of kindness. i personally do them on a daily basis. for example- on sunday we were walking in to walmart to look at bikes for sams birthday. we were just doing that, so we didn't need a cart or anything. as we were walking along the sidewalk and i saw this older lady loading her trunk with her groceries. she had just finished when i walked by her and i could see that she was about to hobble all the way back inside to take her cart in. i stopped and said "here, i'll take that in for you." she smiled, kind of surprised, happy, and appreciative. "thank you". which i then replied "you're welcome" as i took the cart from behind her car and pushed it inside. BAM! random act of kindness.
i wish people would do them more often.
it proves that people do have a heart and they do not just think about themselves all the time. the sad thing is that people are seeming more selfish these days. they want the best, the most, the greatest whatever for themselves. and the thing that makes me a little mad is when people label me as selfish, mean, not helpful, inconsiderate, etc.people (even my friends) seem to label me. my theory is my unique way of finding the fun in things... well kinda. lol. i use sarcasm. it's my sense of humor. but i have noticed that i really only have that magical sense of humor around my friends-the ones at school specifically.
it's so much easier with my family because i truly have such a colorful personality. this year i have discovered that my 'school personality' is completely different from my real one. its like my light is dulled and it is really hard to break through because if the way people treat me. i need to quit playing along with what i have been molded into during school hours because really, life's too short. thomas jefferson once said that honesty is the first chapter in the book of wisdom.
and i really don't know why i put that in there!! i just heard it on tv and i think it fits!!
anyway, i am a compassionate, kind, sharing, faithful, giving, loyal, (just a few qualities) REAL person. i am always working to keep life better for others, no matter the effects that come along on me. and THAT is why i revoked my transfer. i need to start thinking about what's best for me (high school wise) and stop trying to base my decisions on other people's needs and wants. and farragut is the choice that fits ME. and that is why.
let my light shine!!!

High School

THE BELOW POST WAS WRITTEN 5 DAYS AGO*:
high school is really already turning out to be something stressful. i am on the fence about my high school choice.
heres the thing-
hardin valley vs. farragut
hva
*new school
*nice course choices
*structured
*some of my good friends are going there
*diversity
*not very developed
*parent would have to drive me to and from school

fhs
*has character
*has traditions
*i can just ride the bus there (so, it is cheaper)
*developed
*lots of people i know
*easiest choice
*my brother goes there

*TODAY'S POST:
ok, i have chosen my high school. i have only revealed the choice to one person outside my family, and it is not who you think it is so please, do not talk about this around other people openly. I do not want to hurt anyone badly (which is sadly unaviodable) YET. thank you for understanding and if you would like to know, you can ask, but i promise that i WILL tell when i am ready...

back to school... noooo!!!

aaahhhh... spring break is over!! no more being lazy all day and doing nothing. no more mostly care free days. no more going on pefectly paced 5 mile bike rides. no more texting people all day while still doing nothing... well whatever... spring break always goes by too fast!

anyway, now i have to worry about the c-span research paper. i mean, come on ms. rehder. we devoted a lot of time to work on the video- editing into the hours of the early morning, turning away our social lives to take b-roll, spending lots of money on batteries just to keep our cameras running, working our fingers to the bone...
ok, JUST KIDDING!!! it wasn't that bad!!!
well..... maybe it was...but really, it did take up a lot of my time, especially because i'm the one who did most of the work...
anyway...
ms rehder- we did the video. let's leave it at that.
we should not have to write a research paper about our topic. isn't that why we did the video??
and the thing that sucks is that we did not place in the national contest. 3 groups out of the class placed. (congratulations to gloria and her group. i knew they would win!!)
but it seems like i worked too long, too much, and devoted so much of my precious time to the project (during which i could be shooting basketball, biking a few miles, even working on my... yeah whatever) so i feel pretty shortchanged that all i got was a "great job" and an A. oh boy...i am seriously considering just turning in a transcript of my final documentary, because i am so over/ sick of/ annoyed at/ frustrated with/UGH c-span!!
hope you had a good break!

soon to be popular band- gloriana

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qv3PJ1YSHFs&feature=related

my brother discovered this band- gloriana- through his itunes thing. it is made up of 2 girls and 2 guys, and they have a very unique voice combination. they are currently touring with taylor swift and kelli pickler. i think they are working on an album, but they have only released the single 'wild at heart'. it is a country song (which i can stand and enjoy) mixed with some pop (mostly in the beat). but it is different & the free single on itunes this week. enjoy!

a tribute to st. patrick...

happy st. patrick's day!! are you wearing your green? most people do not have any idea who st. patrick was, but i know a lot about him!

patrick was born into a roman- britain christian family in AD 387. first of all, he wasn't irish. he was stolen from wales when he was 16 by irish raiders and forced into slavery in ireland, where he was a shepherd. after 6 years there, he escaped and returned to his family.
while tending to the sheep for 6 years, patrick became closer and closer to god. he heard him talking to him day and night. after he escaped, he entered the church. he then later returned to ireland as a missionary. patrick traveled the northern/ western parts of ireland with a caravan of about 100 people, also missionaries. they went from settlement to settlement, setting up churches and religion systems throughout ireland.


patrick used the shamrock (or 3 leaf clover) to explain the trinity (father, son, holy spirit) because it was easy for the irish people to understand as well as a great teaching tool. most people do not know that this is the shamrock's symbolism.

Patrick is the patron saint of ireland, and that-along with everything else he did on irish soil- is why st. patrick's day is associated with ireland. st. patrick's day is celebrated on march 17, the day he died (yr: AD 461). st. patrick is regarded as one of the greatest christians of all time.

my spring break plans + some interesting stuff if you look hard enough

usually, my family doesn't 'go anywhere' for spring break. it is a great time to relax, shoot basketball and play other backyard sports, and find something to entertain yourself. i prefer laying out on my bed, on top of all my blankets, with the windows open. a cool breeze eases into my room and it feels... perfect.we will probably go up to the bowlings's house and ride atvs, their horses, and if it's warm enough, we'll go swimming =) if you don't know who the bowlings are by now, this is the last time i'm describing them,...my dad has been friends with jeff bowling since 3rd grade. he owns a lakehouse on norris (which we visit regularly with them during the summer) along with a few jet skis and a boat, his regular home- very nice farm right above the ky border in middlesboro (where the 4 wheelrs, pool, horses, etc. are), and he just bought another horse farm in lexington which i am yet to see. anyway, jeff married johanna and they had 4 kids-boone was their 1st. he is 14 & in 8th grade like yours truly. he and i are pretty close... we have a lot of fun together in the summer-fishing, 4 wheeling, shooting basketball, etc. and i see him a lot. i love teasing him about what a player he is... he has gone through 3 girls since last summer lol. i have to admit that i kind of like him.... but i think it would ruin our relationship... some stuff has happened between us lately that makes me wonder about anyway, he's cool!
blair is a few yrs younger than me and shes pretty awesome
ben is in 4th grade and he's cool too
bryce is the baby. he's 2 or 3 and he's cool too!!anyway, over spring break, i'm going to hang out with my friends etc

it don't mean a thing if you ain't got that swing!!!

trying to keep up with my blog has been a lot harder than usual. yes, my laptop is still broken. i do intend to get it fixed this weekend, but we'll see. (i'm not the one with the car....) anyway, i have had access to computers, but it feels a lot different when blogging on them vs. mine!! i miss my acer!! so i really can't make any excuses- i have not been that busy- with the exception of wed. and fri.- and computer access is not an issue. so why haven't i updated my blog?? i'm lazy!!

and people have been implying that lately... i really am not, i just like taking life as it comes. all of these people (and when i say that i mean it's not just one person. they're everywhere) are scrambling around and saying how they 'can't believe they got all honors classes!' and 'it's going to be so much work' and 'i'm going to fail!!'
here's an idea: STOP IT!!!
if these people would just stop and listen to themselves!!! these are supposedly the smart people. they have been doing this since school began. you people have been doing this for a while, and it's not going to be any different.
but the thing that irritates me is that when I say that i would just like to take it easy and if i have to manage an honors class, i'll just do english-because seriously, i don't need to take honors biology for my path-they're horrified!!! i can just see that look in their eyes- disapproval and 'wow, i thought she was smart...' when in truth, i'll be the one laughing when you're trying to make it by with almost a B because you'll be overloaded with homework and extra studying. don't get me wrong, if you want to be a doctor or whatever, then sure, go ahead and take honors algebra or geometry and honors biology. but hello??? start thinking people!! about your future- if you don't need it, drop the honors class. just because you like the 'smart class' label, it's ok to drop it!! no one cares whether you're in a smart class or not!! SO TO THOSE PEOPLE-STOP CALLING ME LAZY!! and maybe you should start following my example.
this week, i......
-found out that people have the tendency to run away from their problems
-received my base classes for high school next year- honors, honors, honors.....UGH!
-made 8 of 14 points in a basketball game
-lost that same game but learned more about teamwork
-decided that i am beautiful- inside and out- because this is the way god made me to be, so it is perfectly me
-next year is going to be very, very interesting.

back into my blogging ways

well guess what?? something's wrong with my laptop!! so i haven't been blogging b/c our 'family' computer is soooo slow and my dad's laptop is always occupied!!
basketball!!! ahh, one of these days i am going to make all of my friends watch me play in a game!! i need some more support and cheering in the bleachers people!!!
(no, seriously. jordan- start organizing!!)
we lost. suprised?? i'm not. i predicted after the 2nd game that we would never win one. so far, my predictions have proved to be correct!!
i did not leave this game in tears. well, i did cry-once. my nose was almost broken so give me a break!! colbie- one of the BEST players on our team was out sick and we only lost by 10 points! the final score was 14- 24. and guess what?? I SCORED 8 POINTS!! more than halg of the entire team's score!! this was why i was so happy!!
anyway, i was hardly dampened by the loss!! it was more like "I WON!!"- not 'we won' caise that'll never happen- but i finally broke through the 'well i cant complain because i certaibly didnt score any game altering points' title. because i DID make a difference. and maybe, just maybe, if everyone would do their part just as i did tonight, we could totallt BUTCHER the oposing team!!!! I CANT WAIT TO SEE THAT DAY!!

no, really. i'm not built for this kind of problem solving!!

ok, so a lot of 'drama' is going on and i really don't like it! friend one and friend two were getting along great for a long time until their personalities had a crash big time... one thinks I'm replacing them with the other. i can usually solve friendship issues like a dad solves his child's 'boo-boo'. slap a band aid on, give it a kiss, and set them right back up on their bike. unfortunately, something like this has never had the opportunity to trouble my days and give me a hard time.it really annoys me when two people can't sort things out between them. so who do they turn to? a middle man- in this case, me.it's like this: friend one is standing on one side of a bottomless pit and friend two is standing on the other side. but there is a bridge!! me. they want to use me as the middle man- not to necassarily 'make up'- because lord knows that won't happen- but sooner or later one friend is going to cut the ropes that tie the bridge to their side and it will swing over to the other person. but they wouldn't do that just yet. they can't stand each other so much that they just had to double their burdens on the 'bridge' and hope that it would hold and solve everything and guess what?? IT BREAKS!!!! the bridge is the one that falls!! not friend one or friend two.anyway, if you are following my reasoning, you can see that it's pretty hard on me. i've got two expectant faces looking at me to solve their problems. i can ace a math test, dress a wound, save a dog from being hit by a car BUT i cannot fix someone else's problems or follow their rules, expectations, or terms. look, i understand that you can have problems but don't try using a middle man. face your own burdens. talk to the other person. do something!

adaptation

funny how much science relates to us. i have lately been discovering a lot about the people around me, and i must say, it has been interesting. i have also learned some new stuff about myself.

• i change from person to person that i'm with- i am who i need to be for that person and so on.
• i undertake a lot more than i thought i did
• i don't consider myself as much as i do others
• i love people. if i was sent to africa to live in a cave for the rest of my life, i would go nuts. i have to be around people, talking to them, or whatever constantly.
• my life and the people in it are pretty amazing

drama- fyi:not my thing

well lots of stuff has been happening lately. LOTS of stuff. i am not going to go into it on here (for now)

anyway, today is my brother landon's birthday- he turned 16! unfortunately, things have been crazy busy in my life and i never quite found the time to get his present....i'm a last minute kind of person if you didn't already know... so he'll be getting his gift from me (whatever that is- i haven't decided) this weekend. happy 16th bro!

looks like i'll be getting another game hangover....

well, best game yet! we played better as a team, but we lost. the thing that makes me mad is that it was SO close. 13-15. all we really need is to shoot more! anyway, i am just comepletely sick of losing. i was really actually pissed off. at first i was finding the weak links in our team and picking on them and everything they did wrong....of course not to their faces!! to my mom, who told me something like 'you should not blame them and instead look at the things that YOU can do to get better.' but i heard "you're just as good as them when you decide to pick them apart"
and then i lost it. i was like 'i'm as bad of a loser as all of them?!?!?' but eventually mom calmed me down, relatively. my mom played bball in middle & hs and her uncle was the coach of georgia & florida. so, she knows a lot about the game.
she said that the thing that killed us was when my coach took out the 2 best players (me & colbie) everything we had built up was not held by our teammates and the other team ripped it down, scoring a lot. that was when we lost. we lost the lead, the game, and i seriously lost hope.
my coach is all about team spirit & optimism but me, i'm competetive. I MUST WIN. and when i don't, i get pissed big time.
this is where the game hangover comes in. when i lose, especially with the close game this time, the rest of the night and the next day until noon i am in this 'down' mood. just kind of like 'awww man, beaver dam it' i can't believe we lost. ugh.

what to do with the rest of my life?

ok, so this year i'm going to be starting high school. wow. the thing i started spazzing out about this summer was this fact: i only have four years to plan out the rest of my life and they're going to go by very, very quickly also, i have NO IDEA about what i want to do. and where would that leave me? confused, lost, and frustrated. over the past years, this has been my career choice rollercoaster: vet, contortionist, teacher, vet, teacher, forensic pathologist, undecided, teacher, stage (theatre) director, doctor, marine biologist, marine rescue, teacher, lawyer, film producer/director/and stuff like that. as you can see, it's been a long road...
(and this stuff isn't everything i have considered)
i really don't want to have to map out my future at the moment! but, my time for cruising is over. i have to start centering my classes around my future, so i'm going to focus on liberal arts. i really enjoy theatre- the directing/stage manager part- so, of course i'll be joining drama club. i will be taking some honors classes (biology, english) and i might continue doing band... but i'm not sure. if i do anything, i will probably join jazz band, but i'm not sure if they accept clarinets. i will probably end up on alto sax. anyway, i'm going to also take some technology/media classes also, i will probably take some more concentrated classes in the film area. as for my foreign language (UGH) i might take spanish (i've always wanted to know what they are really saying at those mexican restaurants and construction sites....no, i'm not racist)
currently, i am looking at NYU as a college. they have one of the best film/media programs in the country. the others include UCLA and USC-but they are both in Cali, which is too far from home for me...
(of course if they gave me a nice, fat scholarship, i can always change my mind...)
so the secret is out!! for now, i'm planning on focusing on film. sure, i'd make a good lawyer or doctor, (heck, i can do anything really...) but i can't stand doing such similar stuff every day. plus, i really do not want to mess with medical school. :P

doyle arwood did NOTHING wrong- yeah, i'm putting it out there again

doyle arwood did NOTHING wrong
ok so my bus driver- doyle arwood- was driving his normal route on friday, feb. 20th. this 3rd grader apparently missed his bus and his mom knew that bus #207 was in the next neighborhood over and he still had time to catch it. so the kid's mom drove her car behind the bus and when it stopped, she let her kid out and told him to run & catch 207 in time.well, you must know, doyle knows where everyone lives who rides the bus. if a kid misses the bus, he drives extra slowly in front of their house to be sure they had time to run out the door at the last second in case they were late. he knows these things.so this STUPID kid who wasn't even on doyle's route ran up to the bus after the other student had gotten on. well, some part of his arm got stuck in the closed door and doyle drove on (of course, he had no idea) 300 ft. he didn't see the kid until the next stop.i mean, come on. the kid could have banged on the door or something. why didn't any of the other kids riding the bus see the kid? he must have been pretty hated, because someone had to have seen that.you also have to understand that doyle is probably the best, most dedicated bus driver the county has ever known. he even had his own bus line (which he just recently sold to someone). you can still see 'doyle arwood bus lines' on the sides of some buses (which are also the nicest ones). he is 79 years old and every day for a long time, he gets up and drives that bus. why? it's not because he has to. he loves it and the kids. doyle arwood would not hurt anyone ever.the thing that makes me angry the most is who the people are pointing fingers at. they point them at doyle!!! what the heck?? wake up people, if it's anyone's fault, it's the kid's and his mom's!!!! i think that they deserve the blame because they are true idiots. THE KID DID NOT EVEN RIDE THE BUS!!also, i wanted to point out that it is illegal to follow a school bus. there were a lot of parents today who are following the bus with their fancy camera phones trying to catch something bad. IT WAS AN ACCIDEENT PEOPLE!!!doyle was 'removed from the list of eligible drivers list'. this infuriates me. do you people really think that he goes around wanting people to get their arm stuck in his door? no. do you also really think that he would let this happen again?? NO. Open your eyes people.so please, to the mother trying to get grief and an angry swarm of parents on your side, STOP IT. there are some people who know who's fault it really is, you inconsiderate woman. and doyle arwood is not the one who should be blamed.

thank you for my everything

before this blog takes off and i post maybe about a paragraph each day, i want to take the time to thank everyone in my life who has forever changed me. the people i have mentioned are: mom, landon, sam, kelsey, rosina, boone, blair, ben, bryce, jeff, gloria, jordan, & olivia mcgregor as well as olivia monroe. find yourself to see how thankful i am!

mom- you are truly one of the most amazing people in my life. you are so humble, kind, loving, caring, helpful, and everything else i love seeing in people. the thing that i love best about you would have to be how amazingly loyal you are to god. you are one of the strongest christians i know and that is what i need most in my life.

sam- you have to be the coolest younger brother on the planet. we get along 90% of the time and you actually listen to what i tell you (well, most of the time). i just want you to know that i only want what's best for you- that's why i try to guide you away from what is wrong and toward what is right. i am so lucky to have such a great brother and i'll always be here for you under any circumstances. also, i totally forgive you for shooting me in the arm. =)

landon- you are a really cool brother as well, but in your own ways. when we were younger, i always was skipping around in your footsteps and that was because i needed your guidance. even though you didn't always give it to me (now and then) i thank you for the times that you do/did. i love the moments when we have great times together and even though i'm 2 years younger than you, i'm actually pretty fun to be with....if you would give me more chances. i would like to stop arguing with you so often, but you also need to start working on being a little more tolerable. i will also always be here for you-whenever you need me.

kelsey- you are unlike any friend i have ever had. all of my life, i have had friendships that drift in each year and then awaythe next. thankfully, you are different. you and i have more in common than almost anyone else i have called my friend.thank you for being loyal, kind, helpful, accepting, and once again, pretty much everything else i love seeing in a friend. i truly believe that we will be best friends for a long time. even though we enjoy annoying the other on a daily basis, our opinions clash, you get mad at me, i give you the silent treatment (lol that was a funny day), and everything else we do to each other, you're awesome and (words cannot express but i'll use these) i'm one of the luckiest people in the world to have a friend like you. thanks.

rosina- wow, rosina. you have taught me so much about the stage, life, people, and being a leader. it is amazing how much theatre teaches you about life and its components. i want to thank you for being that person in my life whotaught me these things. also, you have quite possibly opened the door to my future. thanks.

boone- haha, i never thought you'd end up in this! i don't know what it is about you that i love being around so much. i really enjoy hanging out with you-especially in the summer. thank you for being like a third brother- and maybe a smidgen more- to me since we were in diapers. i think it's really cool that i can say i have known someone for 14 years who is also the same age, so i can relate to you. thanks boonie.

speaking of the bowlings...

blair- well, 12 or 13 years seems like a long time to be stuck in the middle between all these guys! it's been fun being able to have a really cool girl like you on my side during countless summers. thank goodness you were a girl, or else i'd be all alone! haha,but really, it's been fun!

ben- well ben, i don't really know what to say to you buddy. you have really matured since you were born, and it's been cool to watch you turn into the boy you are today. i think that you are a really unique person and even though you 're in 4th grade, i love hangin out with ya. stay cool!

bryce- ok, you're what? 4? in my book, that's no different. you're a cool little kid and it has been fun to also watch you grow up. i really cannot believe you're that old already! it seems like yesterday you were being bottle fed by johanna while we went out on the lake, and look at you now! you're already out there on the tube!

jeff- mr. b, how will i ever forget you? never. thank you so much for all of the great summers. without you, what would we be doing during those hot days? thanks so much for all you've given, shared with, and taught us!

now out of the bowlings...

gloria- first of all, without you, i would not be blogging. thank you for that!! you are an amazing person and i'm really glad that we will be going to the same high school!! also, you're really fun to be with and i really enjoy your presence in my life! we might have clashing opinions sometimes, you try running up behind me and scare me (which, if you've noticed, NEVER WORKS), lol, i have always though you were a really cool person and i enjoy being around you every day!
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jordan- i've always though that you were really cool person. from the time we met ( in like what, 4th grade maybe?) anyway, from passing basketballs back then to seeing you every day at school, you've always been a fun person to be with. =) thank you for making me smile every day. also, thank you for giving me someone to laugh at every day!! (jk even though i do) even though i might make fun of you using the power of sarcasm sometimes....well a lot lol...you're a good sport about it, mostly becasue you laugh right along with me. but that's another great thing about you- your easily forgiving nature.

olivia mc- i am so thankful that facebook reconnected us after all these years. i never knew that my 2nd cousin was so cool! also, it has been great to be able to turn to you when i'm in need and just talk. you're like that amazing older sister i never received! (but definitely wayyy better) i really hope that we will be able to see each other this summer. (we really need to work on that!)

olivia mo- wow, first, i have to say thanks. you are so amazing! i am so thankful to have known you for how long- 5 yrs? yeah. anyway, i have always known that i can find you in one place- church. that's what i have always needed. as i truly learned this year, friendships are built on Christ.and you know what? that's the way it has always been with us. this year, i finally saw the light, more clearly than ever before. and you know who led me there? you. you have no idea how just being at church whenever i went did for me. and then in january, you set the ultimate example that has changed my life forever. i thank god every day for you olivia, and i also would like to thank you, so much.

i could go on and on, but tonight, i'm calling it quits.

me, a blog hog?? yeah!

ok, so this is my second blog!! WOOOOO!! anyway, i like my 1st one so much that i think having 2 will be even better. this one will be just a little different though... it is more of a perspective/ reflective thing so be prepared to think!